SPKC Sentosa Rekky

Went to rekky for the games planned for the SPKC FOC'09. Started at 8am and ended at around 1pm. We had a fruitful day; managing to plan out the games to incorporate into this coming event and had fun at the beach. In the mean time, enjoy the pictures. More will be added to it later.

Gears on the move

It just goes to show that organising stuff is something I like. Of course, that excludes my personal stuff and I'm referring to stuff as in events like camps. I've been involved in planning and preparing for SPKC FOC'09; and hell, I'm hyped up to do more.

I feel like giving the club blog (which I started and neglected later) a makeover! I think I should (help out). Dee's probably having problems, working out how to work the blog.

My gears are active and on the move. It would be nice if this feeling never go away..

I'm not a nice sister

Found out my 2nd younger Ayam has been talking bad behind my back in her blog. Oh ho. I have words for her. I'm not sure if she fucking knows but when my 1st younger sister tells her to get out or criticises her; I'm not supporting her. I just keep quiet and get out of the way. I never say I like what she does; throwing her temper around. If she noticed, Adek attempts to kick her out of the room many times compared to me.

And, apparently, I don't have the habit of writing my irritation of her playing audition so much on my blog. Well, apparently, maybe I should but I won't. It's wasting time. Also, you got something wrong. I asked if you wanted to use the computer. It wasn't something out of sarcasm. I was really asking you a damn question. You should go learn literature and learn how to interpret words and tone. And, knowing that our folks will chase you to bed, I asked you for the time. Do you think I take notice of what time they chased you to bed? Don't use blah blah as to what I say in your blog. Listen to what people are saying.

Important words for you: I'm not a nice sister. I never was and never will be. Being nice, encouraging, comforting, pretty big sisters like in the overrated tv dramas or movies is not in the package. I got my own set of principles I adhere to. And, yeah you have your hobbies, I have mine; and mum has hers. Most importantly, you're in secondary school; you're still studying; you're not in the least an adult. Hahaha ... consider yourself lucky. You have no idea the things you could get away with, compared to me when I was around your age. Handphone, computer, go out after schools... Not sure if you know, I don't have much friends in Sec 1 & 2. I went out exploring the malls, travel to other stations.

What I have in the end is a lecture about being the eldest, show good example, threat to put me in a foster home and all I can do is keep my anger in my heart but it overwhelmed me and broke me down. Do you want to face the same thing as me? Do you want to cut the back of your wrist as an act of rebellion and an oath to yourself two years from now? The eldest get more tough discipline. Discipline dies down when it comes down to the younger ones. And, you, my dear girl, is a younger one. It's like I set a threshold for the level of discipline; mine being the highest.

To deal with these things I don't like, I became slightly abnormal and I enjoyed it- whatever you name it: watching gay, reading up on the occult (witchcraft), smoking, wanting to be outside in the night, all the things you don't deem normal and you're not open-minded enough to accept. By the way, you should thank me. I started watching anime first. You people followed. I have an annoying time proving that watching anime doesn't get in the way with my studies.

So, say what you want in the blog. I give you permission. Continue playing the audition you love. Deciding on things without using logic and reasoning (like the time you went out early morning just to get on the same bus as your friend and got your folks angry). Remain the righteous child you're always are. I'll get out of the way of interrupting your space and happy time. I think it's about time people stop interfering with you and let you fend for yourself.

Afterall, you're capable of that, right? If consequences arise, let me see the downfall. I've been waiting to see the downfall of someone in the family. It excites me to see someone go down and have a taste of failure. Twisted right? Maybe it's like what I thought to be when I was younger- a child of the Devil, perhaps?

"Everyone's a critic"

Brian Kinney: "Everyone's a critic."

Oh, so critically and fucking right.

Queers As Folks

Finished watching the last episode of the homosexual-themed series, Queers As Folks. The ending was bittersweet with the main couple, Brian and Justin deciding to call off the wedding, separate themselves; allowing Justin to create a path for his career in New York and Brian to continue being himself- the playboy and "ass behind the asshole (as quoted by the character Debbie)"; but knowing that without rings and vows, they love each other.

I'm sure many QAF (Queers As Folks) fans are sad over the series' bittersweet ending. I'm not spared either. Though I'm considered a "lag" as Joanne described to discover this series much recently, I feel like I've been watching it for a long time and was saddened to see its ending. What appealed to me was not just the sex scenes, but also the political issues facing homosexuals, lesbians, the conflicts, love, friendship and emotions.

The most applaudable thing are the actors and actresses. Gale Harold who plays Brian is a heterosexual/ straight in reality while Randy Harrison who plays Justin is a homosexual/ gay in reality. It's admirable for Gale Harold to manage to pull off as a gay, arrogant, hot, sexual predator called Brian and act out the sex scenes which I'm sure it isn't easy; considering the sex scene with Randy was at its pilot episode where both actors barely knew each other and wasn't all that comfortable yet.

The couple, Brian and Justin and the show itself will live forever in my heart. There will never be a more sensational couple on screen of a gay drama series. Just like the producers mentioned in their final shoot for the series: "the relationship between Brian and Justin was the first of its kind. You've created a landmark in television.....there will never be another relationship like Brian and Justin in television ever and even if we have it, it's because of the two of you"

As The World Turns: Luke and Noah Story

Found another soap opera with a gay couple inside. Someone shoot this gay fan girl now. This time it's from the still ongoing soap opera series, As The World Turns. I'm watching the story of the only gay couple, Luke and Noah.

There's certainly no steamy sex scenes (it took about a year in the story timeline for them to get into bed together). Of course, the kisses weren't left out. There's also issues of coming out of the closet (shoot yourself if you don't know what that means). For those peeps who don't know the meaning, it means coming out into the open, normally used in the situations found in television series where people reveal they are gays, lesbians or bisexuals.

What I like is the acting from Van Hansis who plays the character of Luke. I see a similarity between him and Leonardo DiCaprio who played Arthur Rimbaud in the gay movie Total Eclipse. Both are similar to each other in terms of the character's sarcasm and taunting remarks. The agonised and suppressed-emotions facial expressions of the character of Luke is the one that leaves a lasting impression on me. Van Hansis certainly lives up to his reputation of being nominated for two Emmy Awards.

Jeez, look at my remarks; commenting about acting. I guess I'm really drawn into people's acting. Seeing them act with so much emotions and pulling off their roles, makes me want to jump out and get myself into acting... Nah, I haven't got the look. Nowadays, people go for outer appearances. I guess I'll just live that fantasy of being a convincing actor in my mind ... hmm ....